2/13/2017 4 Comments Egg UpdateToday at approximately 9:30 I received the call I was anxiously awaiting. I knew immediately what the nurse had to say. She did not sound happy or hopeful. Our egg did not fertilize naturally. The egg looked perfect and Matt’s super sperm still showed up. But they apparently were not communicating for whatever reason. We had previously elected to do “rescue ICSI” in case such an event occurred. This is an extra $1,700. During this procedure they pick a sperm and inject it into the egg and hope it fertilizes. When I told one of my friends this she responded by saying, “Okay, well maybe they are just shy and need a little help. Kinda like a school dance and they don’t know how to approach each other. I’m hoping they just need someone to ‘hook them up.’” These are the kind of people you need in your life when you’re going through this horrible ordeal. Matt and I were both shy and awkward and needed someone to hook us up, maybe our egg and sperm are the same. The nurse said they would call back around 6:00pm for an update.
It has been a long day. I kept thinking how we are not the Patriots. If we are down 25 points at half-time we aren’t the kinds of people to come back and beat the other team. In our case I’m feeling like we are down an infinite number of points and infertility is the other team. Google is your worst enemy in this battle. Don’t ever Google things. I think I’ve said this before. But, I keep doing it. I read that only 57% of embryos reach fertilization with rescue ICSI and only 9% of rescued embryos make it to a live birth. I really wish I didn’t understand statistics. Six and a half excruciating hours later they called back at four instead of six. The embryologist said he went in to check a little early to see how things were going and our egg had fertilized. In some states this little embryo is considered a full blown human. I’ve never been one to think of embryos as people, but this process has truly changed my perspective. I considered my unfertilized egg as much of a baby as an 8 month gestation fetus. To have a real live embryo is promising, exciting, and terrifying. How can I love a barely fertilized egg so much? I called my husband to deliver the hopeful news. I told him, “Maybe our embryo is a real Hokie. Maybe it’s a second half developer.” Perhaps, in second overtime we could really pull this off. So now we just hold our breath and see how the next few days go. Because it fertilized a little late if we make it to transfer it could be Thursday now instead of Wednesday. “Perseverance is not a long race; It is many short races one after the other.” Walter Elliot
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Kristine
2/13/2017 05:55:49 pm
I love the football analogies!! I elected because of my age to do ICSI from the start. I started with 4 of my eggs. They were beautiful! You seem to be going step by step! Best wishes!!
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Heather Joyce
2/13/2017 05:58:18 pm
we asked about regular ICSI but they said with my age and matt's sperm count we wouldn't need it. I'm beginning to think we just need to the opposite of what the doctors say ?
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Regina Moore
2/13/2017 07:10:46 pm
This is really inspiring to read. My prayers for you , Matt, and this little guy or gal!!!
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Heather Joyce
2/13/2017 07:12:33 pm
thank you so much ❤❤
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