6/15/2017 0 Comments FANTASTIC NEWS from SyracuseFor the first time in over two years of trying to build our family, I feel like I’m FINALLY getting fantastic news! Our clinic doesn’t do a 3 day embryo update unless you contact them. I called. The lady’s voice on the pre-recorded call greeting is so calming it’s as if they got Sigourney Weaver herself to record it. Naturally, there really wasn’t a line to dial to go where I felt like I needed to go. Instead of being on hold and transferred 32 times I thought I would send a portal message (the messaging system they use for quick communication). I sent embryology a portal message and my nurse (just in case she knew something faster). My nurse responded quickly and said the embryology team would respond, but if they didn’t to let her know. This was approximately 8:00am. Around noon I was getting SO nervous. I totally convinced myself that they weren’t contacting me because it was all over and none survived. At 2:00 still no call. So I sent my nurse a portal message to let her know. An hour-ish later they finally called!! The lady told me 4 looked really good and 2 looked fair. I thought 4 would be fantastic!!! Then I thought…will all four make it to Wednesday? Then I realized the lady was still talking. No clue what she had said while I tuned out. When I turned back in I heard her say, “I wouldn’t count the other two out yet.” My mind immediately went to, “SIX!!! ALL SIX COULD MAKE IT!” Then My mind went to, “Damn it lady. Why are you getting my hopes up?” She said some more things but I really don’t remember what.
So…Now I just had to make it to Wednesday. Tuesday morning I had a massage. It was so energizing! I went on a mission to find some good cat toys because our cats have been totally out of control since my husband left for Switzerland. My cat Maxwell has been religiously waking me up around 3:30am and 5:30am. He’s been a real cat from Hell destroying the carpet and not listening to me. So I'm hoping new toys will calm him down. I went to Wal-Mart, but they had no good cat toys! Total disappointment. But, I found this really nice patio furniture set. I decided (after much deliberation and searching all over town to make sure it was the best deal) that I had to have it. I got it home and (tried to) put it together. My dad always buys stuff when he’s stressed out. Apparently, I am my father’s daughter. But, at least it wasn’t a boat. AND it was a great time killer even if I did only manage to get one chair put together. I found it to be a great distraction and now I have a nice chair to read on the porch. I was so elated at one point I had to call one of my psychologist friends and make sure I wasn’t manic. He politely told me he thought I was just happy and in a good mood. It has been SO long since I’ve been in a genuinely good mood, I literally thought I was going crazy! Wednesday. The final day. Around 8 or 9 in the morning I got two portal messages.One from embryology and one from my nurse. We had 4 frozen embryos!!!! To end up with 4 embryos is a true scientific miracle. They expect about 70% of the eggs to fertilize and about 50% of the embryos to make it to blastocyst. So to get 4 embryos out of 6 eggs is amazing. BUT WAIT THERE’S MORE. The other two were still kicking so they were going to let them go one more day to see if they reached the blastocyst stage. Even if the other two don’t make it, I had 4 embryos!! I was getting ready to go to town for my weekly therapy appointment. I felt a weird sensation in my belly and thought, “I think I’m going to start my period soon, but it's not due until Friday or Saturday.” But I felt more movements and decided I should check out the situation. I STARTED MY PERIOD! I have never been so happy to start my period. So, I then had to alert all the authorities. I got my orders from CNY for my blood work and ultrasound and called my local clinic to let them know I needed an appointment. They told me to come in a 8:00am on Friday. Then I went to therapy and out searching for cat toys. It turns out Target is the place to go for cheap cat toys! Score! I bought enough cat toys to make Jackson Galaxy proud and when I got home the cats were more than pleased. Maxwell even let me sleep through the night! Thursday. Because of my period starting yesterday, I had THE WORST headache. I couldn’t even listen to the TV let alone look at a screen. This is a new thing that seems to have developed over the last few months. I woke up really early this morning because I went to bed so early last night. I logged into my portal like it’s my work e-mail and refreshed it every half hour. I got my final report. I had to read it approximately 56 times before it sank in. We have SIX little Han Solo’s!!!! All six of our embryos made it to freeze! I CANNOT BELIEVE IT! I seriously was hoping like Hell that we would get three. But all six of our little maybe-babies made it. I am finally feeling really positive that this could REALLY work for us. So next steps. I will not be the next Octomom. We are only going to transfer (Note: the proper terminology is transfer and not implant. Implantation cannot be controlled. It has to happen on its own) one embryo at a time because of my age. If it doesn’t stick the first time I might consider and talk to the doctor about doing two the second transfer. Assuming my body responds to the medications and does what it is supposed to do and I have no cysts (UGH that is a whole lot of assuming), I should have my transfer in 20ish days give or a take a few days. This is all such good timing. If my ectopic pregnancy had been viable I would’ve delivered my baby during June. Likely even during this week. So it is all very bittersweet to think about. This whole journey I have not really felt like anything was going to work. But, I really feel like this is our time. I think it could finally be my turn. I saw this sign at Homegoods yesterday while killing time and bought it to put on our mantle. It seemed all too fitting. “A calm sea never made a skilled sailor.”
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