1/24/2017 0 Comments Forever WaitingYesterday was my birthday. Which I have kind of been dreading like the plague. I always thought I’d have at least one kid by this age and here I am with no sight of any children. I’ve been waiting for – what feels like – eons for my period. I had hoped and hoped and hoped that I would get my period for my birthday. When have I ever wished for that on my birthday? Who would wish for this? Oh that’s right…infertile women… Especially those waiting for their period to start IVF. If my body had cooperated I’d be having my egg retrieval next Monday. But here I am still waiting just to get started. It is so stressful trying to plan meetings for work around an infertility schedule. I don’t think I need an added layer of “when will I get my next period?” on top of that. I had to call the doctor yesterday as it was cycle day 35. This is the day when you should be worried if you haven’t had a period yet. They generally like for you to take a pregnancy test before you come in. Even though I knew it would be negative, I couldn’t bring myself to see another negative on my birthday. There’s always that ounce of hope against all rational thought that maybe, just maybe, this will be your lucky month. Although I waited to take a pregnancy test, I did manage to muster up the courage to call the doctor and schedule an appointment. They said they’d need to do an ultrasound to see if I had any cysts or if I have maybe ovulated already. So this morning, I woke up for my appointment before work and peed on a stick. It was negative of course. As always, I held it in the light at every different angle just to make sure it was negative. Alas, it was definitely negative. I then went in for my morning “greeting” with the doctor. I had some slight markers that maybe I did ovulate already. My uterine lining appeared to be thick enough to indicate that I was producing estrogen and I had fluid behind my uterus which would indicate I had recently ovulated. But my ovaries weren’t showing much of what they were looking for. *Infertility Pro Trip: Always wear clothes that are easy to take on and off for a faster appointment. Right now I am loving leggings and my zip up boots! Next stop: Bloodwork. Have I mentioned that I’m basically a walking bruise? I feel like at any given moment I have 8-15 circular bruises on my back from cupping and I currently have an insane black bruise below my belly button from acupuncture. My legs and arms are often bruised from acupuncture as well. I rolled up my shirt sleeve and sure enough my good vein was still bruised from the last blood draw. Luckily, I had one more good vein right next to it. The good nurse was taking my blood today, luckily, and there were no issues getting my blood this time. So, I waited and waited and waited. Finally, this afternoon I got the call that I did actually ovulate! Hopefully, my period will come within the next week. If it does not come within the next 10 days I have to go back and see what’s going on. So…I’ll still be here… waiting and waiting. In honor of Janis Joplin’s birthday last week, I’ll leave with one of my favorite quotes of all time: “It’s gonna be a long hard drag, but we will make it.”
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