6/20/2016 2 Comments Waiting ...I’m currently nearing the end of my 2ww (two week wait). This is the period of time after ovulation and before menstruation. It’s the time you could be pregnant, but not know it yet. You would really think with all the technological advances we have in medicine we could figure out a faster way to know. It’s the time when women are over-analyzing every twitch, headache, unexpected nap time, cramp, etc. I know I’m not the only one, so I’ll admit that I also walk around the house squeezing my boobs to see if they’re sore. Every 2ww seems harder than the last, but this 2ww seems exceptionally crucial as it’s the last time before we pay hundreds (or thousands) of dollars to try get our own little bean. I can’t help but feel hopeful and optimistic that this is our turn.
Last night our oldest cat, Momo, was outside past her curfew and spent the night outside (those teenagers...). Out of our three cats she is the one I least worry about outside. However, she hardly ever spends the night out. I dreamed someone stole her. I woke up around 5:30 immediately from the dream to see if she was waiting to come in. She wasn’t. I’m a little superstitious. I thought to myself, “If Momo comes home that means I’m pregnant and if she doesn’t come home I should never have children.” Okay, so maybe I was setting myself up for that one because I knew she would come home. But, I couldn’t help but feel a little optimistic when she came to the door. I recently saw an inspirational post that said: “Infertility is learning to live in grief while finding a way to a fulfilling life.” I realized today that there’s only 5 weeks before I have a week long training before I go back to work. I feel like I have done nothing buy lie on the couch watching Netflix for the past two weeks. I haven’t even read a single book all summer and normally I can average one book every day or two in the summer time. Today I dusted off a book that I started just before our fertility testing started. Hopefully, I can finish it soon. So now I will wait. And wait. And wait. In the meantime, I’m going to find some things to do that I enjoy. “Patience is not simply the ability to wait – it’s how we behave while we are waiting.” – Joyce Meyer
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Kristine Wade
6/20/2016 03:17:12 pm
Oh yes, I remember it well!
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Heather
6/29/2016 12:20:33 pm
It's the worst!!!
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